The Joys of Motherhood, lol...

This semester is extremely busy for Phillip and myself. I'm taking 2 college classes and he has to finish up some requirements for his Professional Teacher Certification. This means that on Mondays and Tuesdays, after coming home from work, he goes to school. It's not much, but it does keep him pretty much MIA both days. Wednesday thru Friday evenings he's home.

But, today is not Wednesday. Today is Tuesday. Naturally, Tuesday is the day of the week that my darling child decides to be most sick. Mariana seemed to be recovering quite well from her little stomach bug. In fact, symptoms were almost completely gone as of today. I took her to the store and we had a fun, somewhat, energetic shopping spree at the grocery store. Then we came home. Mariana spent the first two hours after coming home vomiting and with diarrhea. I have no idea how such a wee little thing held so much in her, but I got the joy of seeing so much come out.

Before becomming a mother, I had one of the weakest stomachs you could imagine. Ask anyone, lol. Someone gagging in front of me would make me ill, a smell, something gross looking, even movies with parts that had others laughing... EW! I tell you on days like today, I wonder where that Cassie went. So far this evening, I've been vomited on, and then while holding my darling child on my lap as she vomited into a bucket that I happened to be holding, I was pooped on. All of this on the evening that Phillip is gone.

Everyone pray for my poor little munchkin to feel better. She's so sweet through all of it. She says "I so so sorry Mommy" everytime she vomits. Then, "Its OK Mommy. I all better." I'm working on keeping her well hydrated. She's just fallen asleep about 10 minutes ago. Hopefully, she'll be better soon. Pray also that Maddy doesn't get ill. I can't see a little 6 month old going through all of this!

11 Years Later

Can you believe it? Phillip and I have been an US for 11 years. My husband and I started dating January 14, 1997. Aside from about 8 days total (because I'm a stupid head on occasion), we've been together since that day.

It's so hard to believe. Last night I was laying on the couch using his leg as a pillow, just looking at him. I was telling him about how much I remember of our earlier years. I can close my eyes and picture Phil in sixth grade, with his side part and glasses... Then I see him in 9th grade, still so thin, with his smirky smile... How many women can close their eyes and picture their husband as the 14 year old boy they grew to love. I mean, WOW. He's become the most amazing man from the most charming boy.

On top of just having each other for 11 years, God has granted us 2 incredible daughters. They are such a wonderful blend of the 2 of us. Mariana has some of the Johnston crazy in her with the Clark hardheadedness. She makes silly comments and sounds and gets this crazy smile with big crazy eyes and I see a little Phil. Then she puts her hands on her hips and with a little attitude says, "I don't think so Mommy," and I see me. We created her. Phillip, God, and I combined to make her. And don't even get me started on Madeline. Oh my, she's a sweetheart. She sits up now. She rolls herself over. She's getting more stable by the day. But more importantly, this child has an inner light that just melts everyone. I can't even describe it. She smiles at you and her entire being glows. She loves us so much.

When I said "yes" to that 14 year old boy who asked me out... I made the most important decision and took the most important step toward the beginning of my life. Amazing, isn't it? I was only 14 and I was already shaping my adult life with the man of my dreams. God is so smart.

Another Fulfilling Year of Marraige

Today my husband and I celebrated our 4th Wedding Anniversary. Beth and Kristina came over and babysat the girls for us, and we treated ourselves to a delicious dinner at Chili's.

After dinner Alan and Mike joined us and we had a grand time playing Mario Party, and other games. We had a great Anniversary.

While celebrated the joy of our Marraige, I'd like to say thank you to Mom and Dad, Mom and Dad, and the rest of our family who are fantastic examples to us. Phillip and I understand what it is to be married because all of you taught us the importance of Marraige. Without you as an example of love and compromise, we would not have truly appreciated what we were entering into 4 years ago.

Christmas

Today was a beautiful day. My one wish was to be able to stay home today. I did not want to have to take the children anywhere after they woke up and opened their presents. I thought it would be nice to allow Mariana to stay here and enjoy Christmas day together here. I got my wish. I hosted a dessert celebration. The family came to me and I stayed up all night baking yummy treats for them. I made two weight watchers recipe desserts that were fantastic, if I do say so myself. We had pumpkin roll, cookies, pies, a cake, and a jelly roll. It was delicious here.

During dessert we all exchanged gifts and enjoyed being together. It was the first thing I've hosted where so many were over. I greatly enjoyed it. The mess however was not terribly fun, lol. Beth stayed and practically cleaned my kitchen by herself... I was incredibly grateful for this. The gift exchange was lovely. I'm very grateful to everyone for the gifts we've received and more grateful for the gift of everyone.

Phillip and I feel that God has truly blessed our family. I hope that all of you feel the same way.

Happy Birthday Jesus.

Christmas Evening

Today was Christmas Eve. Frankie, Grace, Nick and Faith, Phillip, Mariana, Maddy and I celebrated today. We exchanged gifts with the kids. It was very nice and fun. The children loved their presents and it was a great preview of what we have to look forward to tomorrow.

We went to Beth's house this evening. That was extremely nice! She had pizza and we all hung out and opened presents again. They got the girls some wonderful things. Mariana got an adorable outfit and doll. Maddy received her first teddy bear. It was a wonderful celebration of family and love.

This evening we got word that Phil's grandfather passed away. Everyone says that it was fitting that God should bring him home on the day that Grandpa most honored His son. Having been involved in the Christmas Eve celebration once in the past, I understand what they meant by this. While he will be missed on Earth, I'm sure his family will remember him with love and affection. He always struck me as a funny person who loved life and family. I do wish I could have known him a tad better.

Well, we're off to put together some things.

Grateful

My family is so wonderful. Phillip and I are about to celebrate Christmas in our own place for the first time ever. I know it would not have been possible if not for our parents. They've helped us so very much.

I cannot even begin to explain how much I appreciate the family God has granted me. I was given far more than a loving set of parents in my life. Between my mom and dad, my husband, and his parents I believe I hit the jackpot before I was even born. If I have a single Christmas wish, it would be that everyone get to experience the love and support Phil and I get from our family.

My Prima Ballerina and Her Beautiful Baby Sister

Mariana was in her first recital today. She danced a single dance with her class to the song "Christmas Wish." It was a simple dance, seeing as how the dancers were 2-3 years old. But it was wonderful. She was so beautiful on stage. She did a great job, moving gracefully, doing her best to remember the choreography.

It was a proud parent moment to be sure. In fact, I did cry. We sat, with Maddy on our lap, the entire family there. Everyone present to watch my beautiful girl in her first recital. Moments like this are to be cherished.

Madeline is reaching the point where she can sit up with assistance. If you let her go, she maintains her balance for up to 10 seconds at a time, but then inevitably falls over. She is the giggliest girl in the world. I tell you that girl giggles and smiles at everyone. I am so proud of both of them.

Thanksgiving

Yesterday was Thanksgiving. The entire family gathered at Mom and Dad J's house. I made the mashed potatoes and baked some cookies. It was really neat to see.

My parents, Frank, Grace, Joan, Nick, Faith, Phil, Me, Mariana, Maddy, Meghan, Alan, Lily, Mom and Dad, Caitie, Josh, Hannah, Josh's mom (whose name escapes me, sorry), Beth, Kristina, Alyson, and Nikki all gathered for dinner... I don't think I forgot anyone... I do hope not. Being part of the Clark and Johnston family for so long, I've really gotten to see it grow. Phillip and I have been together for 10 years... So although we've only been married for over 3 of them, I've felt part of this family for far longer. We had a fantastic dinner. After everyone played Rock Band on the PS3. It's amazing how wonderful our family is as a whole.

Lily and Maddy are both getting so big and didn't lack for arms to hold them. Mariana entertained people with her adorable antics and speeches. Faith and Nick played with everyone and charmed them with their huge smiles. Family is such a joy.

On a different note, the napping schedule and such seems to be helping with Mariana's nights.

Problems and Solutions

Mariana has continued with her sleeping troubles. After doing more research, I've discovered that she DEFINITELY has night terrors. Her father suffered a similar fate as a toddler. This has been exceptionally problematic. I have been driving myself nuts. Phillip and I have been going crazy trying to keep her calm and comfortable while putting her to bed. Apparently, everything we've been doing has been the wrong thing. For instance, napping. Skipping naps perpetuates the problem. Night terror intensity and frequency increases with sleep depravation. Now she's not sleeping well at night, and then skipping naps... She's definitely not getting enough sleep.

We've begun a strict nap schedule and bedtime schedule. Hopefully, that will help.

Night Terrors

Mariana doesn't sleep. Who'd have thought I'd be complaining about my eldest child's lack of sleep when I have a 4 month old who gets middle of the night feedings.

Mariana goes down to bed at night and she becomes a different child. We tuck her in the same way as always, but she SCREAMS. She doesn't just scream, she kicks, she scratches, she completely freaks out. This is so unlike her. We're trying everything we can think of. But she's inconsolable. She even wakes up screaming and freaking out. I'm wondering if it's the moving that caused this, but she was fine for the first month. Why all of a sudden would this start?

We've tried taking away her nap, thinking that she'd be so tired without it that she will go to sleep, but that doesn't help... In fact, she seems to be getting worse. I have no idea what to do.

Strange differences.

Everything is going quite well with us. We greatly enjoy living in our own place. It's the simple things really. For instance, being thirsty at 11 PM and walking to the kitchen in your underwear and a tank top. Phillip lives in boxers past a certain time and until he puts on his work clothes. Mariana seems to be adjusting well. Her room is adorable. She is easier to keep an eye on here. I can see into her room from the living room and I can keep an eye on her from where I sit, here at my computer, which is a nice change.

However, I do miss certain things quite a bit. For instance, in the mornings, I would sit on the countertop while Mom prepared her breakfast or coffee or whatever, and I'd drink a cup of coffee and chat with her. Sometimes I'd complain about whatever Phil did to annoy me, or whether or not Mariana slept well, how Maddy kept me up, and sometimes I'd listen to her, or we'd do both. Today, I really miss that. I've gotten quite close to her and Dad. The other thing I miss is the afternoons. Dad would come home and we'd sit on the couch and have coffee or a snack and the 3 of us would just sit there chatting or watching TV together.

I do love it here though. I just miss the time we all had together so regularly.

Update on the move

Well, last Friday we started the process of moving. By Saturday night we were sleeping in our apartment. We've still got some boxes to unpack and some odds and ends to pick up, but it's going really great. The apartment is really coming along nicely and we're enjoying making it home for us. The girls are adjusting nicely. I still have to finish up Mariana's room. I think I'm going to take tomorrow or Thursday to empty it, paint it, and then set it up the way I really want it. We got her a new Princess border and a castle mural for the walls. So far, we love it here. The grounds are nice, the neighbors are friendly, and it's just wonderful.

For those of you who have helped, you guys were so awesome this weekend. Phil and I couldn't have done this without you. We're so comfortable and it went so fast because of all of the help you gave. Alan, Mike, Dad and Frank helped with the furniture and Meg helped me set up. My mom has been here for me nonstop helping me with boxes, clothes, and just getting set up.
I love all of you and thanks a bunch!

Moving Day Continued...

THANK YOU EVERYONE... All of the furniture is here and set up. Meghan and Alan treated us all to food! God bless them. The men were wonderful in getting the furniture all set up. The clothes and little stuff will be a slow process, but overall, it's livable here. THANK YOU MUCH!!!

Moving Day

It is moving day. We have a U-Haul that Phillip and my father and brother will be picking up in a little while. My in-laws are out of town. I do wish they were here while we moved because it feels wierd doing all of this with them gone. But I'm sure they'll appreciate not having to see the mess we inevitable will endure throughout the day. Yesterday I took over some boxes. The cable guy came and hooked up the cable television, phone, and internet service. As all of you are aware, we couldn't move into a place that didn't have high speed internet prior to our living there. While waiting for the cable guy, since he wasn't arriving until around 8 PM, we had dinner. My parents were helping so, they picked up some steaks... I cooked them and we ate on the floor. My mother had set up the kitchen while I moved a good deal of the boxes, so I had a fully functional kitchen last night. She's a sweetie. Frankie, helped me with the boxes until he needed to go home and get some sleep for work that night. I'm truly grateful to them for their help. I'm grateful to EVERYONE for helping this transition go as smoothly both physically and emotionally as it has thus far. Today, however, shall be the hardest day.

Wish us luck!

More Apartment News

The apartment we were planning to move into will not be available until mid October at the earliest. The previous tenants apparently did not take good care of it, and the tub is cracked, the carpet is ruined... SO, we had 2 options. We could wait until at least the second to third week of October or move into the apartment next door to the one that we were previously moving into. In which case, we can move as early as the 21st of this month.

Phillip and I elected to move to the new apartment number. I've already begun packing and I cannot see myself living for an additional 2-3 weeks at the least the way it is now. My head is spinning with how quickly all of this is occurring. This time last month we hadn't even looked at any apartments and now, we will be moved in less than 2 weeks.

Packing has been interesting with the 2 children. But as always, my family has been helpful and supportive. My mother, mother-in-law, and sisters-in-law have been helping me with Mariana during the day, and Maddy still sleeps a great deal. Things aren't getting done as smoothly and quickly as I typically like, but it's getting packed up... Who would have guessed that you could accumulate so much stuff in so little time?

Apartment News

Our application was approved. We will have to pay the minimum security deposit, administrative fee, and pet deposit fee. All of this will be due by the end of September before we move in. We were planning to move before the end of the year, thinking that we might spend Christmas in our new place, but it appears we will be moving even sooner than that. There is a first story apartment available in October. Our move in date is October 1st. I've got a lot to do. I have packing to prepair for, storage to bring out, cable, electric, phone to set up. It's going to be a very busy month!

My family is being very supportive and helpful. I imagine it must be as sad for them as it is for us. Phillip has never lived elsewhere, but even more than that, we're moving with Mariana. Mom and Dad have been very close to her. They have been teasing us mercilessly, but understand our desire to be on our own. It will be a sad day and an exciting day at the same time. So, next month we'll be in our own place, wierd.

Apartment Found

Phil and I found the place we hope to move to. It's an adorable complex. There is a pool, beautiful courtyard, and it has secure access. It's near his work and everything. I'm very excited about it. Today we are going to take in the application and pay the application fee and such. Wish us luck.

Life Decisions

Phillip and I have been thinking that it is time we move. Our family has been fantastic and very supportive. I never imagined that we would all blend so well into one household, but we did.

Unfortunately, with another baby, it just feels a wee bit cramped. We've spoken over it again and again and decided that by the end of the year, we will probably have our own apartment. I've been dragging my heels really looking at places.

I'm excited at the idea and sad at the same time. When Phillip and I got married. It was the first time I'd moved from my parents home. I went straight from their house to Phil's family's home, my current home. I remember driving away with my car full of boxes. I stopped a brief moment and cried. I was thrilled to be married and moving in with my husband, the love of my life. But part of me cried for the closing of a chapter in my life. I imagine I will feel the same way when we move from here. I love my family. By that, I mean that I love my in-laws... I very rarely refer to them as my in-laws, because they are simply my family. It's almost like leaving home for the first time again.

Eventually I'm going to have to get this process going though.

Another day in my life...

Well, I figured its about time to update.

Everything is going really really well. Phil is working 2 1/2 hours a day, 4 days a week for the next 2 weeks. This has been both kind of sad and relieving. It's been sad because he has to work during his summer break and we were really enjoying him being home. It's relieving because of the money, of course. It's also been good for me because it's about 3 - 3.5 hours that I have the 2 kids by myself everyday. It gives me a minor preview of what life will be like in August when he goes back to work full time.

The kids are awesome. Mariana is really hitting her terrible twos. She's a great kid, but boy does she know how to test your patience, lol. She's been just a little challenging, but we love her all the more for it. She has been extremely sweet to her little sister. She hasn't required very much adjustment time at all and immediately started treating Maddy like she belongs. In fact, she cries when she thinks that Maddy isn't going to be with us when we go somewhere. She's learning new words everyday and really starting to amaze me with her intelligence. She starts dance class next month! I'm really looking forward to that.

Maddy is wonderful. She requires a little more effort from me than Mariana ever did just because of the choice to breastfeed. But, I'm enjoying the time with her. She's changing everyday and is beyond adorable. Her neck is strengthening and her head control is getting better. She's also losing the jerky motions of newborns and moves her arms and legs with more purpose and more gracefully now.

Phillip has been a Godsend. He takes great care of me and the girls. He does everything he can to help me and give me some time to relax. He helps straiten up, makes me food and drinks all day, takes care of Mariana and plays with her while I have to take care of Maddy, takes care of Maddy when I'm exhausted, and just about anything he can do to help.

So, that's about all that's going on right now. I'll update again soon.

Maddy is home

Madeline and I are home. She's a sweet little baby. Mariana seems to love her little sister already. We were fortunate in the fact that I am able to breastfeed Madeline, at least for now. Hopefully, my health will continue to bloom as she grows so this will not change.

She was 20.5 inches long and 7 lbs 0.3 oz. She has a head of hear, can you believe it? My little Maddy was born with hair, and I don't think she'll lose it, but we'll see.

I cannot believe we've been gifted with 2 little girls. Phil and I are so happy.

In more news. Meghan and Alan were blessed with Lily just 1 day after our Maddy was born. Lily is a cutie pie. Meghan's delivery didn't go quite as planned. After quite a bit of painful labor, she had a cesarean since Lily was breech. I told her that she can feel blessed in knowing her next delivery will be as easy as Maddy's was, since I remember the discouragement I felt at having a C-section with Mariana.

Meghan and Lily will be residing in the hospital for a little bit. Probably just a few more days. Lily has raised white blood cells, so she has to be given an antibiotic. Please pray for them.